Forget it forget it forget.

Hey people. Im not sure which is worse- putting up a facade of happiness or just to let it out and have this aura of negativity hanging around me. Fuck this shit. Why do i continue to look happy and fine when im clearly not? -sigh- Just give me a reason to be happy. give me a sign. give me something to look forward to. You know what? Ive finally realised why i put up with this nonsense. I just dont want others to get affected by me- i mean, i feel bad speading shit around me so i just bottle it up. And this process just continues everyday. Three hundred and sixty five fucking days later im just going to explode. sigh. Im totally alone here=> you know what? forget it=] have a nice day people=]